A Troubled Heart, Trust and Truth
Next week marks the beginning of holy week and the final journey to Easter begins. In these last moments we are called to listen to the Father's voice. This Sunday's Gospel begins with some Greeks requesting an audience with Jesus...
Now there were some Greeks among those who had come up to worship at the feast. They came to Philip, who was from Bethsaida in Galilee, and asked him, "Sir, we would like to see Jesus." Philip went and told Andrew; then Andrew and Philip went and told Jesus. Jesus answered them, "The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Amen, amen, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat; but if it dies, it produces much fruit. Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will preserve it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there also will my servant be. The Father will HONOUR whoever serves me." I am troubled now. Yet what should I say? 'Father, save me from this hour'? But it was for this purpose that I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name." Then a voice came from heaven, "I have glorified it and will glorify it again." The crowd there heard it and said it was thunder; but others said, "An angel has spoken to him." Jesus answered and said, "This voice did not come for my sake but for yours. Now is the time of JUDGEMENT on this world; now the ruler of this world will be driven out. And when I am lifted up from the earth, I will draw everyone to myself." He said this indicating the kind of death he would die.
And there I am there also will my servant be... These words of Jesus resonate in these last moments before Lent in so many ways. Where was Jesus and how do we follow him there?
First we follow his example, even in his most distressing time Jesus was able to reach out to the Father in his pain and submit himself to his will. This isn't easy but through the Holy Spirit we too have this grace.
I am troubled now. Yet what should I say? 'Father, save me from this hour'? But it was for this purpose that I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name."
Jesus doesn't pretend to be okay nor does he attach himself to the way he feels as his identity, instead he acknowledges that his heart is troubled and allows himself to feel it while still holding onto the truth revealed to him, that the Father would be glorified. To glorify, means to to act and think of God in ways that reflect his greatness. The greatness of God is revealed at his weakest point. It's in our times of tribulation and our trust in God, that he is glorified.
Jesus calls us to follow him to Calvary and to be with him on the cross.
He calls us to open our hearts so that we may hear the voice of the Father who is so eager to speak to us.
"Sir, we would like to see Jesus."
Easter is around the corner and it's all very exciting, but do we really want to see Jesus. To gaze upon him resurrected we must first see him crucified.
Help us Lord to be with Jesus in a more intimate and courageous way this Lent. Help us to look at our own pain and suffering on the cross trusting in God like Jesus did. Help us to trust in your love for us, your kindness and gentleness resisting the lies that always try and to pull us away from you.